Finding Allah · South Africa

Be the Stars

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم
In the name of God, the Compassionate, the Merciful
I was fortunate enough to attend Madina Institute South Africa’s Ubuntu Knowledge Retreat at the Lion and Safari Park this past weekend. The retreat covered Imam Al Ghazali’s text “Ayyuhal Walad – My dear Beloved Son” over 2 days.
My first instinct was to write about everything I’ve learned this weekend. But that’s exactly what this weekend taught me not to do. Knowledge without practice is useless information. So I’m going to tread lightly a little bit, and hopefully, I’ll share some of the gems we’ve learned as I go along. For now, I’ll leave you with the parting words from our teacher Shaykh Dr. Muhammad Al-Ninowy (may Allah bless and preserve him) before his final dua (paraphrased just in case I did not remember it correctly) :
“Don’t count the darkness. The night sky can be illuminated by a single moon. 
Be the stars, be the moon, Spread light in the darkness.” 
–   Shaykh Dr. Muhammad Al-Ninowy; 2017
    UBUNTU Knowledge Retreat,    South Africa
The retreat left me motivated and hopeful. In the face of all the turmoil, all the diseases infecting our Ummah and the world in general, it’s easy to get despondent. It’s easy to start to lose a little hope.
Here’s a reminder not to. We all have the capacity to shine bright and forceful through our adherence to Allah’s command and the way of Our Prophet Salallahu Alaihi Wa Aalihi Wa Salam.
Be the Stars. 
Allāhumma ṣalli ‘alā sayyidinā muḥammadi nin nūri wa ālihī
“O Allah, send salutations upon our Master Muhammad, the Light, and his Family!”
Finding Allah

Trust Allah, Yasmin

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم
In the name of God, the Compassionate, the Merciful

I have a serious problem of documenting everything. EVERYTHING. But then when I’m feeling a little reflective it’s easy for me to delve into the notes I’ve typed out on my phone (much like this one) and draw strength from Yasmin of the past. Sometimes, I think she had things so much more figured out. Sometimes, I feel sorry for how lost she was.

It’s a reminder of how up and down this journey of ours is. I usually have a note of how despondent and frustrated I feel followed by a post describing the mercy Allah has bestowed upon me.

This week, okay a couple of weeks now, I’ve found myself in several tough situations. I’ve been tested from every aspect: career, finances, personal, emotional, all of them, but that’s not the point of this post. I know I’ve got it easy, Alhamdulillah.

I look back at the number of notes that I have reflecting on how Allah, Al Lateef, has given me whatever I wanted, without even asking for it. And now I’m sitting here asking myself “why are you even worried?”

Allah, in His infinite, all-encompassing mercy, has always taken care of me. Allah, Praise and Glory to Him, has always given me more than what I’ve asked for. Sometimes, I didn’t even ask Him, it was just a longing in my heart which was then granted and manifested by Adh-Dhahir, the One who is Manifest. Al-Hafidh has always protected me, Al-Kareem has always been generous to me, Al-Mujeeb has always answered me.

My dear cousin nephew (it’s a blurred line in Indian culture) once sent this text:

Allah has wants, and you have wants. If you do what Allah wants, He Subhanahu Wa Ta’aalaa will give you what you want. But if you do what you want, you will struggle and never truly get what you want, you’ll just keep wanting.

And at the end of it all, all that will happen is what Allah wants.  So do what He wants, return to your Lord willingly in a state of consciousness, before He sends His angel to return you to Him.” 

I pray Allah brings ease to all of our struggles. I know we all have them. We’re facing heartache, stress, indecision, and uncertainty. We only have Allah to protect and guide us. May Allah allow us to surrender to Him, Subhanahu Wa Ta’aalaa, to be patient and content, to be steadfast in our worship, and to be grateful when He grants and when He deprives. Aameen

الْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ عَلَى كُلِّ حَال

“Praise be to God, in every circumstance”

Keep on keeping on my dear beloveds.
Allāhumma ṣalli ‘alā sayyidinā muḥammadi nin nūri wa ālihī
“O Allah, send salutations upon our Master Muhammad, the Light, and his Family!”
movies/books/art · South Africa

Lion

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم 

This post isn’t a review and if you’ve yet to see the movie I advise caution as this may be a bit spoilery (I tried to keep it to a minimum). After watching the film I was overwhelmed by emotions and felt the need to expel them somewhere, so why not here.

Lion is a film about a boy, Saroo, who gets separated from his family in India and gets saved through getting adopted by an Australian couple. Years later he is plagued with memories of his birth family, who have no idea how safe and happy a life he’s led. And so he begins to search for his home to answer all these questions running through his head.

Based on a true story.

As soon as those words come across the screen it already elicits an emotional investment from the audience. 4 hours after seeing the movie, it’s still consuming my thoughts, I’m not quite sure how to put it down eloquently.

For me, the most jarring realisation that I had after watching the movie was that nothing is impossible. As humans we’re so blinded by practicality and logic. We don’t have faith anymore. This movie taught me to have faith. That anything is possible because God is capable of anything. Knowing this was a true story immediately told me that everything that I would watch actually happened by the will of Allah (barring the exaggerated bits made for Hollywood). Immediately this wasn’t just a story, but an example of Allah’s, Subhanahu wa Ta’aala, mercy. For me, whilst I will never fully comprehend the gentleness of Ya Lateef,  here was a true life story to remind me.

I don’t know these people, I have never met them. But watching their struggle unfold was overwhelming. I was forced to contemplate my whole life, the opportunities I’ve had, the mercy I’ve been exposed to. My family tree extends as far as my grandfather. Beyond that, we don’t know where we descended from. He moved to South Africa with my grandmother and then 10 year-old uncle and toddler aunt. I imagine the four of them on a ship, unsure of what’s awaiting them but hoping that it is better than what they left behind in India. Scared but hopeful. Undoubtedly, the life they led here and what’s become of my family is incomparable to the life that would have been had they stayed. My siblings and I often wonder what if. What if our Papa didn’t make that brave move? What if they didn’t get on that ship? What if we were still in the gaoon (village) ?  We’ve seen pictures of  our grand-aunts and my father’s cousins, their homes, their lifestyles. Some of my immediate family have visited too. The contrast is astounding.

We have lived a western privileged life in South Africa, with our spacious homes, multiple cars, education, electric stoves and appliances, holidays and everything else we wanted accessible within a blink of an eye. We have been so ungrateful.  It could have been so different, but Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’aala inspired my grandfather and allowed us, his descendants, to have so much more than my Papa could even imagine. Alhamdulillah.

Back to Saroo’s story. He could have lived his whole life in Ganesh Talai, but Allah allowed him to have more. A comfortable life in Australia, yes a difficult one in which he did not truly understand his identity; but a good life, surrounded by love and filled with opportunities his birth mother could not have dreamed of. How merciful is our Lord?

His emotional struggle and his birth mother’s suffering of years not knowing where her baby was is another lesson. That good comes with bad. Heartache and sacrifice are often the foundation of something beautiful. Whatever hardship we may be facing today, in days or months or years we will see the benefit of that hardship. No suffering befalls us without reason. That reason is for something better to take its place, it may be to take us closer to Allah, or to make room for a better blessing from Him Subhanahu wa Ta’aala than what we thought we wanted; but with this understanding and complete trust in Allah, we can face anything this world throws at us.

I could go on, but I think this is a good place to stop. In short, God is merciful. Appreciate your life. There are people living the kind of lives we can’t even fathom. Every little thing you have was meant for you so be grateful to God.

Alhamdulillah

Allāhumma ṣalli ‘alā sayyidinā muḥammadi nin nūri wa ālihī
“O Allah, send salutations upon our Master Muhammad, the Light, and his Family!”

South Africa

“Loop julle Saam?”

I recently moved out of my mothers house after 23 years of being coddled. Now, where I come from is a small, sometimes backward suburb but we’re surrounded by the greater city of Pretoria.

I didn’t realise how much there is to appreciate about our Pretoria until I moved out: the people, the places, the food. The family. I moved to a smaller town called Middelburg (we refer to it as Middle Earth, because sometimes it really does feel like a strange mystical place of the past). Middelburg. Where I have 2 friends (okay that’s expanded to like 6 now). Where the only Halaal restaurant is  an inconsistent Pakistani joint (the food is SO bad). Where the place is a dead town past 2pm on a saturday. And where interracial friendships (let alone relationships) are a thing of astonishment.

Case in point:

Last week, my roommate and I went shopping at Woolworths. When my roommate went to the till to pay I kind of lagged in the background waiting for her. Noticing me hanging about, the cashier turns to my friend and says: “Loop julle saam?”  in curiosity. That’s Afrikaans for Are you guys together?  We both nodded a casual “yeah” not thinking of it. She, however, paused her cashiering trying to compute this. She was silent for a few seconds, staring between my white roommate and me and then she asks me “Indian Lady?!” in disbelief.

That’s the town I live in. In Pretoria, Gauteng or basically any major city in South Africa, interracial anything is not weird at all (and it shouldn’t be!) but here in the middle (i did, I’m sorry) of SA in small towns scattered through the plains, racial segregation is a subtle ever present condition. I get that races tend to group together towards people who look and act like them. I do it too. But here, it seems socialising with different races is a rare, awkward and abnormal thing.

We were actually shopping to get something for a braai (barbecue) we were invited to.  I was one of 2 non-whites and with my headscarf, the obvious non-christian in the room. But the evening was lovely and we had a pretty good time. There were some afrikaans jokes that completely sailed over my head but hey, I survived a night out of my normal zone and its up to me to do it again. Its up to us to break the mould.

One of my favourite verses of the Quran, and the one that has me astonished that racism in Islam exists is Surah Hujaraat (49) Verse 13:

“O mankind, indeed We have created you from male and female and made you peoples and tribes that you may know one another. Indeed, the most noble of you in the sight of Allah is the most righteous of you. Indeed, Allah is Knowing and Acquainted.”

“That you may know each other”. Yusuf Ali’s translation emphasises this with “not that you may despise each other”. We were created different to love and learn from each other and it seems we, as people, as muslims, have lost sight of this message. In the current climate of the world it’s so important to remember this verse.

May God (Glory to Him, Most High) guide us all, to love each other not despite our differences but because of it. Ameen

Allāhumma ṣalli ‘alā sayyidinā muḥammadi nin nūri wa ālihī
“O Allah, send salutations upon our Master Muhammad, the Light, and his Family!”

 


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South Africa

FMF (?!?!?!?)

I’ve been silent on FMF (#FeesMustFall – a student movement in South Africa) because I honestly don’t know what my opinion is… I can never pretend to understand what it’s like not to be privileged and have that opportunity. I can’t pretend to relate to growing up in circumstances that are so different from my own.
Last year, I stood in the crowds, I marched with my fellow students for a cause I firmly believed in… this year I am on the outside. Watching from the media perspective and I’ve felt the change in my resolve. When last year I was 100% for the cause, this year I am confused – and that is only my fault. It’s easy to turn a blind eye when you’re not in the middle of things. (If you want to understand whats up The Daily Vox is awesome).
I can get why people are so angry at FMF , because we’re exposed to it briefly on the news, radio and the  ignorant conversations in our offices. It sucks. It sucks only seeing the violence and destruction and the actual cause is being ignored by media. It sucks that there are thousands of students being affected – arrested, suspended, and those unable to complete their academic year because of the movement – every perspective is valid. It sucks that the government is letting our country self destruct in this manner. (It makes me worry what they’re doing, if this movement doesn’t scare them it means they have bigger skeletons that they’re happy not to be discovered).

Everyday I wake up and have this sinking feeling. I know I can’t sit on the fence for much longer. I know I can’t support violence and destruction. I’m not sure if free and quality education can go hand in hand. I’m not sure of tertiary education is for everyone, though its fair for everyone to have the opportunity and decide for themselves.
I’ve always believed that the government needs to establish an economy where a degree is not the be all and end all of surviving. There needs to be more jobs that PAY WELL that does not require a bachelors qualification. I don’t see how getting a degree and the associated job is any better, I’ve become pessimistic towards the system because this is how it goes:
You go to uni and get a degree, then a job, and whatever that job is, it doesn’t pay enough. Now that you’re earning, you need a car and house that equals debt and taxes. And that’s basically the rest of your life. Debt. and Taxes. I’m just saying that FMF is not the answer to happily ever after. It’s still gonna be tough – tertiary education or no.

I genuinely don’t know what the solution is. But when you start feeling like that remember and pray. Everyday. Especially if you’re complaining about the situation, especially if you’re affected. God is Merciful.

Ya Rabb (Oh Lord) , have mercy on us all, guide the students in their struggle, provide for us from what is good, educate us, increase our knowledge. Protect us from falling into debt, from wanting beyond our means and bring peace to this country. Ameen.

Subhanallah w Alhamdulillah, w allahu Akbar

Allāhumma ṣalli ‘alā sayyidinā muḥammadi nin nūri wa ālihī
“O Allah, send salutations upon our Master Muhammad, the Light, and his Family!”